A Letter To My Last Baby, Days Before You’re Born

My sweet baby boy,

You’ve spent the last several months growing inside me, and it’s now only a matter of days, minutes, or hours until you’ll make it known that you’re ready to enter our world. You consume my thoughts, little one. I think about how excited I am to hear your innocent newborn cry, to know what you look like, to hold you in my arms and to stare at you for hours on end.

I think about rocking you in your nursery, which is ready for you with new paint, new sheets, newborn clothes, and your name hanging in big white letters on your wall. Revealing your precious name is something I’m most excited about. Your daddy and I have actually had it picked out for quite some time now. Soon after we had your brother, we dreamed about the day he’d get to have you, a little partner in crime, and we were certain of what we wanted to call you.

But there is so much more for you than a neatly organized nursery and a carefully chosen name. More importantly, we’ve prepared a home for you to be loved unconditionally in. We are so deeply in love with everything about you already. We’re curious to learn what uniquely wonderful traits you’ll bring to our life, and are confident that they’ll make up the perfect final piece to our family puzzle.

As you get ready to join us, I wanted to give you a little sneak peak into what you’ll be getting yourself into. You see, life is FULL around here, and we’re thrilled to be able to share it with you.

Let me tell you a little about the five of us who are eagerly anticipating your arrival.

{Daddy}

You have one amazing daddy. He works long hours in a high pressure job to provide us with everything we need and more. His job is important to him, but the minute he walks in the door every night, his gaze immediately changes. His top priority is our family, and he will do anything for you. He loves you so much and will probably tell you that at least 10 times a day because he never wants you to question how secure you are in his love. He also can’t wait to make you laugh and joke around with you, which is another thing he’s really good at. I have no doubt that as soon as you’re mobile you’ll be racing your siblings to the door to see who can give daddy a welcome home hug first.

{Big Brother}

Your brother can put up a good fight, but underneath his strong-willed personality is the most tender and loving heart you’ll ever find in a little boy. He talks about “baby brother” all the time, and while sometimes we hear “NO!” associated with your name, we’re confident that once he realizes you’re a BOY and are able to play cars, planes, and trains with him, you’ll be well on your way to a life-long friendship. We know you’ll have your moments when you’ll argue and wrestle and do all the things that brothers do, but we also know that your relationship will go much deeper. We pray that you and your brother will grow to be little boys who love each other, and who love others, and that the bond you share will be that of iron sharpening iron which will connect you through your entire life.

{Big Sister}

Your oldest sister by 7 minutes will shower you with love the moment you come home. She’s a little mommy and will probably bring you more pacifiers and diapers and books in a day than you’ll know what to do with. That little heart of hers is so generous. She’s always looking for ways to take care of her siblings. Her laid back, go with the flow personality is perfect for our busy family and it makes my heart happy to know how much love she’ll show you from day one.

{Big Sister}

Your other sister is a spit fire. She might be the one stealing your pacifiers, diapers, and books. But the good news? I think she only does it because she wants to make you laugh. That’s usually her biggest priority and we’re so thankful she’s been given the gift of a sense of humor. She loves to crack us up, and I’m sure you’ll be her newest target. Her joy is contagious and will probably have you setting records for the youngest baby to flash his first smile.

{Mommy}

Oh little bud. When I think about you I have so many wonderful emotions that flood my heart. You are the last baby we’re planning to have, which means I’ll be going through lots of “lasts” with you. I apologize in advance for the sentimental crying you’ll have to endure, as I process all of those moments with you. But as much as I’m going to mourn going through the baby stage for the last time, there is also so much to be excited about. I’m looking forward to having our team set and am ready to embark on the future and what that means for our family.

But before we get there, I’m going to enjoy every newborn cuddle. I’m excited to have one on one time with you in the middle of the night when your siblings are snug in their beds. I’m excited to bond with you in the early morning hours when I’m half awake and half asleep and I hear your cry telling me you need to eat. I’m excited for the crazy mornings when everyone wakes up and wants mommy’s attention, and how I’ll have to depend on God’s grace to give me the patience and perseverance to meet all of your darling needs.

I’m excited to watch you grow from a helpless babe into a little brother who has so much personality and love to reciprocate to your siblings. I’m excited to learn about your strengths and talents and how I can encourage you to use them to make the world a better place. I’m excited for the privilege it will be to laugh with you and cry with you, to listen when you need me to, and to give advice when you ask for it. I’m excited for these things and so much more.

More than anything, I’m so excited to be called your “mommy” and take care of your little heart. Your life is being entrusted to me, and I promise you beyond a shadow of a doubt that I’ll do everything in my power to love you and take care of you the very best I can. You hold a special place in my heart. You’ll always be my baby.

Love,

Mommy

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